Happy New Year

Emotions spinning round my head
And my eyes tired but not willing to close
So much fear
sadness
love

This past year has been beautiful. Possibly one of the best. I can't even begin to remember it all. I know there has been a lot of sad and cold and lonely. But there has been even more joy and warmth and love. I've made and lost friends. I've regretted and resolved not to regret. I've given and given and given. And sometimes I've gotten much more in return than I could have ever asked for. I've fallen in love with life and the beauty of people in their best and worst moments. And for 2011? I'd like some peace. I'd like to meet another person who will change my life for the better. I'd like to be more open. I'd like to get serious about the things and people I care about. I'd like to frown a little less and appreciate and encourage more. It shouldn't take a new year to change me, but sometimes it takes a little push to start an avalanche.