Surprises, Rambling, Purple

So many things surprise me these days. Especially since it's been my birthday and Christmas I keep getting surprised by gifts I'm given and the apparent thought put into them; surprised by people who remembered and people I don't know too well stopping to smile and wish me well.

Normally, I hate surprises and I'll pretty much stick to that opinion. It's bad if you tell me that you got me something, or that you need to tell me something later.I won't be able to rest until I know what this thing is! Surprises are like big huge failures waiting to happen in my mind.

There are good surprises though, like finding out how great a person is, or that you are still thought about, or that something that's stressing you out has been lifted off your shoulders. These surprises are genuinely unexpected, random, and appreciated. Things that make you step back and smile for just a second.

I'm constantly astounded and mystified by the beauty of people. I love to sit on the sidelines and just watch how awesome others can be. I think the reason I want to be a psychologist is so I can better understand my fellow humans and help them in a way that surpasses the outside and goes directly to the core of their being. Firemen save lives. Actors and actresses move and entertain. Authors live on forever through their works. Psychologists? Few are well known, and only the greatest may rise to fame and recognition. Those are not the types of things I aspire to. I wish only to understand, to know, and to help.

My mood ring is purple right now. As I remember, purple means loved. I am soo very loved by all my family and friends though sometimes they stress me out (dark blue). I think purple is a very wonderful state to be in. To be loved, and lavished in it like royalty as the color once signified. I feel if that aura talk is true then mine would probably be purple. It's soft and warm though it's a cool color. It's majestic in it's own right. That's why it's my favorite. Anyways...

All my love to you! Bai.